Loose ends

Dear XTC,

I'm in my room listening to k-love. I'm tired.  Not so much physically, but mentally, emotionally.  I'm torn between two worlds.  The world I want and the world not so much actually, but the way things should be.  Maybe I should give these up and settle for the one we have.  Why do we all escape?  Video games, t.v., internet, facebook, all that?  Why can't we just settle for earth.  Why do we have to dream?  Hope never attained is almost as unbearable as despair.

If it weren't for You, I don't think it would matter.  Let me dwell on what is good.

I drew today for the first time in a long time. I took the dog to the vet.  I let people merge in traffic.  I'm not totally uncaring.

Now I hear David Crowder's How He Loves..  It's enough.  He cares, and he cares about me.

Christmas Time

I'm working part time at a local department store. I had hoped to dedicate this two and a half week period to creative endeavors, but with a job, two pets, and chores it's been difficult. However, I'm going to try to make some time for it, even if it means getting up earlier.  That's probably the best time to work.  I'm fresh from dreams and untroubled, untainted by the waking world.

I also have a camera now.  No scanner at school, but as soon as I get done with school, I think I'll invest in one.  Headed to watch some Dr. Who at Xtasis's place.

Lunar

Question of the day:

If I want to hug someone on chat, is it xx's or oo's?